Random Hubby Call From Basic

March 25th/ Kiss Me

These were March 26th. My 2nd to last day to see him before he left for basic

My hubby called me today, and I missed his voice so much! I was so happy to hear from him. It was so wonderful to hear him tell me he missed me like crazy, and that he was so happy to hear my voice. I wish I could hug and kiss him. He only had five minutes to talk, and I loved every minute. I love you was his last words before he had to hang up.

the end

So I have officially demolished my 360 day project. I've skipped days and have not kept up with my duties. All the hussel and bussal of life has taken over! I will continue to post though.

I've gotten new hair products from Oyan Handmade and Im keeping track of how it does.
I plan on not buying anymore hair products until the ones I have are gone. Plus since I started my 20 hrs at work I don't have the same income supplying all my addictions. Speaking of hair though, my hair is noticeably coming back to its thickness. I will never dye my hair again! It totally ruined my hair. Ill have to write down what I've been doing to help my poor hair follicles out.

Hubby is leaving the 28th which is only 11 days away!!! Im going to miss him so much. Hopefully when he comes back his wife will still be a vegetarian as well as slim and mentally sane. I've been off my celexa for a while now. Hubby says I've been doing great without those little pills. Im happy, glad, ecstatic about a lot of things in my life. Times do get frustrating with work and school, but through that all is good.

In fact this Saint Patrick weekend will be spent with hubby in a grand hotel located in Atlanta Ga. I've never been to the aquarium or the Coke Factory tour there. We plan on dabbling into other ventures as well. Im in other words "ssooo stoked!"

I may try to post a picture of what im looking like these days...mainly my hair. Im using my phone to do this at the moment so posting anything other than words is a negative.

But I'm going to end on a positive. Life is Good ^_^

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#68 and 69 of 365. Tired These Days

# 69

Thursday, March 10th/ Photoshop 

*I could have written this better, but I'm too lazy to care* 

Today, has been pretty good. I can't complain. I will say that I photoshoped this picture. The best part was that I got rid of the wrinkles under my eyes! It's sad that I have wrinkles and I'm only 22. Twenty-two and looking horrible. That is a shame! My hubby looks better than me most days! That's another shame. 

Being how I have decided to go back to 20 hrs with my job, I think I will be able to get my body back into shape. So when hubby gets back from basic he'll have a wife that is in shape, and hair to or almost to her boobies when straightened. I'm pretty excited about the future. 

Thank God it is almost Friday! 

So much has happened since my last post. My last post was pretty dreary. My relationship with hubby is good, we're great. We talked about religous stuff one of these days this week, and I had him look at some videos. One in particular, I thought fit him so well. The guy reminded me of hubbie's spirituality.  We haven't talked about what he thought about the videos yet, I'm kind of nervous as to what he has to say about them if anything at all. Deep down, I'm hoping for some good/pleasing conversation from it. 

# 68 

Wednesday, March 9th/ School Parking Lot

I took this right before I got into my car to go home after school. I had worked hard to finish up an online class in which I did. As well as acing a Art Appreciation test. While taking the test, the teacher caught a dummy cheating. She was so mad. I don't blame her, because she makes the test so easy, that no one should have to cheat. 

Also, I do remember that on this day, I had to deal with a teacher being unnecessarily sassy towards me via email. I have lately been sick and tired of women just coming at me in any type of way. In most cases, the way they come at me is rude, trifling,  and disrespectful. When I received the email, I had, had it. Therefore, I  told my teacher to not sound or be the way she was towards me plus some other things. My hubby read what I told her, and he said I sounded very hostile, even though I said fewer words. At the end of my message I told her to have a lovely day! 

Hummph, anyway, I am learning that I may just be asexual minus my husband. Woman as of lately have been getting on my last nerves! maybe if I didn't work with just woman on daily basis I would be okay, but on the other hand, men slightly scare me. I don't trust them not one bit, and I don't get too close anymore. Woman are backstabbing and men, well, they can hurt me if they want to physically. 

I am learning how to deal with the madness when it comes to the same sex. 

#64-67 of 365. Pictures of the Days

# 64

Saturday, March 5th/ Addicted to Shooting

#65

Sunday, March 6th/ Why Didn't We Go?

#66

Monday, March 7th/ Another Day in the Bathroom at Work

#67

Tuesday, March 8th/ Ugly Phone Picture 

#59-63 of 365. It Has Been Too Long

I know, I know, shame on me for not posting my delightful thoughts of the days that have now passed. I am happy that is it is Friday and I stayed a live, sane, and a non-murder.

Well, I shall bring the days missed back for just a second starting with

Monday, February 28^th

February 28th/ Primavera 

I went to work and found out that two people in particular, Nikki and Mattie, have a problem with me doing just a tad bit my school work, at work. I expressed my feelings to my supervisor as well as my boss about the situation. They agreed that what I was doing was not wrong, but due to the perception I am going to have to stop. I felt like they had won and I lost, as well as being ganged up on for no reason. I have never done anything to those two dim-wits nor have I ever not accomplished all the work that has ever been set before me.  But because I guess they are jealous or whatever, they had to stir something up, when they should be minding their own damn business. So that put a big damper on my day because I work full time as well as go to school full time. I need all the little I can muster out of the day.

Also, I had to go to class, and I was going to get my Tragus pierced. So even though work had me all frustrated I was excited to do something I had been planning for awhile. I got to the Outlaw Tattoo Place , and of course they were closed. That was sucky.

Hubby came to see me that day as well, but the conversation that day was lacking.  I told him sorry for the previous day, Sunday. I also told him that I was not going to text him in way that makes him think I’m jealous or wanting his attention when he’s with his friends. (fyi I have done well with that). We had an argument about stuff that didn’t matter, but I couldn’t help but feel that there was still an “evil” spirit lingering in the air. He talked to his friends that he saw at the mall more than he did with me. It was a lot of quiet, and struggling to make a conversation happen. At least, that is how I felt.  He said he was tired and then also his child-hood friend died Sunday. But after I left him to go to class, he went to his friend’s house and worked some more after he said he was going home to sleep. Whatever…

I got home that night after class, and I was tired: emotionally and physically. I couldn’t blog. Plus, school had to be done.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

March 1st/ It's a Bad Day 

Tuesday was a progression of Monday. I was trying to get over the pure backstabbing that my coworkers gave me. I definitely know that in this office of woman I must watch my back and trust no one. It’s a dog eat dog world. But I did have people that cared about me, and helped me just brush those bitches off.

This day I just went home, and did school work until I fell asleep around 11 pm. And I must say that on that day, hubby was with friends that night, and I did a good job of not caring.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

March 2nd/ Tragus Pierced

Wednesday I was doing much better with what had perspired in the previous days, but I was excited this day because I was going to get my Tragus pierced.

I got it done at the shop. It hurt, but I’m happy I got it. It looks so cute, and it’s a representation that I can do anything that I want.

I went to class after the urging of my hubby. I am glad I did go because I got 5 extra points for being there, and while he was with friends I went home after class due to being too tired to hang out with them.  

Thursday, March 3, 2011

March 3rd/Riding on the Hwy

It was my first night with my Tragus pierced, and I it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I cleaned that sucker more than 3x. I really don’t want anything bad to happen, because I am prone to bad things happening.

For example, on this morning I got some bad news. My English teacher gave my research paper a 70. I went to work, and I just broke down in tears in the break room.  Between what had happened earlier in the week and that horrible grade, I couldn't hold the tears back any longer. My eyes looked so blood shot when I went back to my desk. 

I couldn't let that 70 slide, so I emailed the teacher back and asked her, begged her if I could redo it, and cite the quotes inside the paper. She let me re do it. I was so happy after that. 

After work I went to work and redid that paper till after 9 pm so I got home pretty late, it was ok though, I felt accomplished. 

Friday, March 4, 2011

March 4th/Pauly Want  a Cracker

Picture:  I took this with my phone at PetSmart. Gab and her nieces were searching for a new pet. 

Thank God it's Friday! I was so ready to get out of that office, and be with hubby and friends. Hubby had a funeral from 11-2, so i thought btw the time I got off and up his way, we would meet up, but my friends i hadn't seen in awhile were in town, so I hung with them, until hubby was ready to see me. If I would have went with him and his friends that air would be so awkward. Inside those people is a aura of sadness and hurt. They just lost someone close to them, and i had no clue who he was. I wouldn't be able to relate, so I stayed away. 

Anyway after me and hubby got together, we said our goodbyes to his friends as well as his deceased one. It's sad he had to die so young. 

At home, it was nice to spend time with hubbster, finally.  He hugged me as if he really did miss me. 

The end.

#58 of 365. My Usual

February 27th/ My Usual 

This is my usual. In my room, at home, with my school books, laptop, and phone. Today was special I suppose because I got two redbox movies to watch while I sit her too.
I've argued with the hubby through text messaging pretty much all day. So I've added that to the mix too.

I am better venting here, to get my thoughts out.
He said, "I bet that if I was still just sitting at home not seeing anyone it wouldn't bother you because it didn't bug you until i starting seeing other people." Well Yes! because he was in the same boat as me, so it was mutual.
It sucks being here by myself more than half the time,while he has no obligations to anything but what he wants to obligate himself to when its not drill weekend. I'm so confined to doing school work, my jobs, and other things. Of course, his simple answer is just do what you want. I can't just do what the fuck I want. I have to work, I have to not make bad grades, I have to be able to stay awake driving at night. He says meet him half way, well that is during the week! I work till 430 or 5 and it takes an hour to get there, plus I drive up there practically everyday for class! I have to be home by10 at the latest because I have to be at work the next day at 7 or 730 am. I'm angry inside. I'm angry and somewhat jealous that he gets to not miss people till it hurts, he gets to do what he wants, he gets to have peer company more than he sees me, he gets to drink it up with his mom and grandmother and friends, while I do what's in the picture. So he says I have hate in my heart about life, well I guess so.
He only has one month left, till he's gone for 6 months. I just wanted to spend as much time as i could. That's proving to not be very easy. I just want to cry.
This week was his week. It was suppose to be our usual Friday through Sunday, I worked so we could go to the movie theater and I even worked my butt of to finish homework and a research paper. I only got one night with him. One night with him and his friends.
He only has a month left with me and only the weekends at that. Being married and still having a long distance relationship is very hard. Maybe if i didn't have to work it would be different.  I don't know.
Can anyone understand me?
I'm not blaming him per say because its the hand that's been dealt. I can't do anything about it, but sometimes it still hurts.

#57 of 365. Humph

February 26th/ Back to the Curly Fro

Humph!
I got up around 8 am.
Washed my hair and did my protein treatment as well as a deep condition.
Went to work
Got complimented on my afro'd hair by a white couple in there maybe 40s. Interesting.
Decided I'm going to get my tragus pierced this coming Monday.
Went home
Went back to the movie theater to watch Justin Bieber with my sister. That was exciting.
I now want his CD haha
The girl that was looking over my paper, which is today didn't finish it or whatever because someone died in her family.
I rushed to do my own editing and sent it off like 1 hour before Saturday was over.
My husband texted me telling me he was drunk playing cards with his mom and drunk grannie at the lake cabin.
Wasn't joyous about that. Just when I was ok with not seeing or being with him this weekend he's having a ball or what-have you without me. So it seems....
I've noticed a pattern with his drinking. I don't know if he's getting it out his system before he has to go to basic or doing it cuz his friends and family are or what. I don't know. Whatever.
I'm tired.
Gotta finish up some homework tomorrow. So I'll be going to church and doing that later cuz it due the 27th.
All in all its been an ok day.
Humph.