Day 115 of 365: Not As Planned

Have you ever had those times where you have planned up how things are going to go in your head and it doesn’t turn out like that at all!? Yup! My brain scenarios don’t ever come to the light of day! I thought hubby would be home when I got there – FAIL. I had no clue as to when he would show. Finally, 8 pm he walks through the door. Scenario 2: jump on him, as he drops everything to a warm long embrace – NOPE. I didn’t jump on him. Scenario 3: long, passionate, married things followed by talking and cuddling till we fell asleep – NOPE. Yea, the married stuff was good, but not what I planned in my head. Soon after, other things had to be done like trying to fix a phone, and me getting my clothes out for work. Not too much talking happened between us. You would think we would be conversing with each other non-stop since we didn’t talk much at all during the weeks he was gone – FAIL. Now, today is Thursday and I have to work both jobs, so a few words, a kiss, and a once clean house was what I left with this morning. I’ll see him around 9 PM, I’ll have to prepare for the next long ass day, most likely pick up shit, and go to bed. Hopefully his phone will get fixed tomorrow, because this non- communication is giving me anxiety and I’m pretty stressed out. That wasn’t supposed to happen. Oh, then I did something wrong at my job, so that wasn’t fun to hear. *sigh I just want to go home, see/talk to my husband, see a brand new red chair I’ve been supposed to have, and play with my dog. :-/ We can’t always have what we want though.

Day 114 of 365: Waiting, Waiting

Right now, I'm waiting on my hubby to show up...I won't be surprised if i start balling when I see him. I haven't had much contact with him these past 2 and half weeks. I can't stand it! I don't know what's taking so long! I got home a bit before 5! It's going on 8pm. *sigh* I hope he shows up soon. :(

The picture is of my OOTD for work. I look kind of chunky! :0 Gee

Day 113 of 365: One More Day

Me and Izzy are holding on! We have one more day till hubby/daddy gets home!! Ugh I miss him.

Today I got home after picking up Hubby a birthday gift and all looked normal until .....I saw izzies butt! OMG she apparently sat in her poop and it was stuck! So gross! That's why she was lying down whining! Lol this crazy dog! I wonder how she's going to act with a second dog in the house. We are planning on babysitting my friends yorkie pup to see how it'll be.

It's only 7:44 pm and I'm tired! I don't think I'll hear from booboo today :(. Goodnight!

Day 112 of 365: RX Hornball

As every Monday morning starts, crossfit! And this week's crossfit has started out wonderful! I ate paleo pancakes and a slither of sausage. I didn't feel dizzy and I also was hanging with the RX girls!!! I'VE BEEN WANTING THAT ALL MY LIFE!!!! lol...okay not really, but it was a goal of mine to be able to do the RX standards. After class other women came up to me and complimented me on  being able to hang with the RX girls as well as my improving strength! I've come to realize I am in love with weight lifting and crossfit in general! 

At work, I thought of my love the WHOLE time! AHHH it sucks when you want something you can't have because he is not there! Luckily in two days, he's all mine! I'm sure he'll be ready for it. 

Right now izzy bear is knocked out in my lap while i watch The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and I'm about to finish up this baby flower headband I'm making for a customer/acquaintance/ that I know would be a good friend if we ever met in person! 

Day 110 - 111 of 365: 4/20 Cherry

Saturday, oh Saturday brought me joy and trouble with the hubby. My best friends spent the night with me. So Saturday morning was cross fit, where I killed it! I finally accomplished the whole exercise. I have found the issues to my troubles during the week. I am not eating enough before I go workout, it's a no brainer right?! The dizzy spells during heavy lifting is going to be a figment of the past! Gab and Adam are probably sore as ever right now, but they enjoyed being in my workout atmosphere. After the working out, we went thrifting! I found, FINALLY, the bottom of a bathing suit that actually covers my whole butt and a cute big-in-your-face hair bow! I paid $1.75 for those two awesome items. SCORE!

Being how it was 4/20 and me and Adam have never celebrated, we popped that cherry. Oh the things I could say about that, but I'm not. It was awesome, even though I did get in some hot water with the hubby for it. :(

Later that night was dinner and redbox movie with the two love birds pictured above. All in all 4/20 was an epic day.

Today is going to be a hair wash/lazy day. I made my own hair wash with Naptural85's recipe via youtube. I've been wanting to buy hair terrestrial's mud wash, but my bentonite clay mask was doing fine. Because of naptural85 I can make my own using bentonite clay. She didn't use that, but it's the same concept and the clay does the same thing has hers does. I used what I had at home. I'm doing a deep condition right now, so I will be trying out the clay wash for the first time very, very soon! I'll have to document the experience? Maybe.

Day 109 of 365: Disappointed

I'm so disappointed in myself this is the second workout that I was unable to completely finish within the time frame! I know I probably should have done 105 instead of 125 lbs, but I wanted and needed to push myself. That weight was my limit for the many dead lift reps I had to do. I completed 4 complete rounds out of 5. I was almost at the half way mark on round 5. The workout was 9-6-3 plus lateral burpees equalling to 1 round. Am I being to hard on myself? I feel unaccomplished in other areas such as not finding a schedule now that I have a second job. I need organization in my life or i will crack under pressure! I still have to start on a hat order!!! AHHH!!! When mason gets back ill need to cook! I haven't cooked since he left! He's gotta eat while I'm at work. He's not good at finding things to eat besides can soup and tuna. My anxiety is trying to get me. I need to breath and make a plan.

Now on to getting this docket put out I'm swamped at work (job 1). I am thankful that my boss came to me and told me how appreciative he is of me and how he doesn't want to loose me. That makes me feel good about myself and about what I do here at chapter 13.

Speaking of 13 it's my sisters 13th birthday. Ill have to call her, unfortunately I won't be able to bowl with her unless they do it tomorrow. Oh how time flies when your busy being a workaholic like myself.

Day 108 of 365: Teary Eyed

I guess I’m just a big old baby. I don’t know how I got through 11 months of no hubby. I guess because we had letters during basic and after he went to AIT he had a cell phone so we texted a lot. This week and the rest of the weeks he has and will be phoneless, bumming a phone off someone every other day. He called me not too long ago, but I was only able to talk to him for 3 minutes before he had to go. Yea I’m crying on the inside and tearing up on the outside. Didn’t even get to tell him much, like how I did last night with tips or my foot in the mouth moments. *sigh* I’m steadily losing weight apparently. I’m down to 121.4, I guess that’s good. I’ll try to stop being sad by 4, so I can be cheerful for these biscuit customers.

On a good note I'm scheduled to work three out of 4 nights at the beer portable which means tips for my juicer! I just need 81 more dollars! I also need to make sure miss France's doesn't try to rob me in the parking lot for my tips when she finds out I get the beer again! That crazy funny old lady!