Gender Reveal at 16 weeks

HEY HEY HEY!!!!

So what is today? Yes, today is Sunday and tomorrow will mark my 17th week of PREGNANCY! Next week I will 5 months! That's so crazy! This pregnancy has been pretty stress free and I'm so thankful for that! 

Oh of course, the picture says we are having a BOY! His name is already chosen and it is not going to change. Say hello to Bryson Alexander! The ultrasound was done last week on July 9th. I will say due to my friend telling me how it could be a girl now I'm slightly paranoid. *sigh* I"m 90% sure it is a boy though. We have another ultrasound Aug 3rd and I will be about 20 weeks by then, so yay for reassurance! 

Now on to my list of symptoms and such: 

I'm still taking my AVKare Prenatal Vitamins

I love PBJ and Honey Nut Cheerios for snacks these days

My water in take has been so much better thanks to the Baby Yourself Program

I've noticed I have some crazy shoulder acne. I don't know how to get rid of it

My weight has been slow and steady. I started at 131 and I think I'm up to 139 or 140 now

I feel the baby move sometimes. It just feels like flutters though

My boobs aren't as sensitive but they sometimes hurt randomly

I've been buying more baby clothes and with coupons I've been stocking up on diapers and wipes

I only worked out 2x last week because ever since my dead lifting incident I notice brown discharge after an intense cardio workout. I'm still going to try to workout but I may just get rid of weights in general.

I've been way more emotional these days. Just Friday I was crying in office because I felt and thought I looked really ugly...ugh! girl issues! 

I think that is it! I feel like I'm missing stuff, but I'm really thankful that my little boy is doing so well, and I'm continually praying for a healthy baby and delivery. 

Almost to the 2nd Trimester

So, I'm almost there! I hadn't bled since May 14th. I'm hoping and praying it doesn't start any time soon. 

Today, I did see some light spotting when I wipe and a little in my underwear. This time around I'm not freaking out too bad. I have a feeling everything is going to be okay. Maybe the spotting has started due my high level of stress and anger towards our neighbors in the back. Their dog almost killed ours, and I have this hatred building each day our dog is not with us because she is at the vet recovering from surgery. Thankfully our little Izzy Boo Boo is still alive. She will need lots of time to get back to her normal self, but as long as she is with us we are happy.

But to get back on track. My diet has been a combo of good and bad. As of a couple of days ago I had only gained 1 pound since finding out I was pregnant. "Slow and steady wins the race" they say. I want to keep the weight gain slow and steady. The picture above was taken at the end of the day, so most of that may be bloating/constipation issues. 

Yes, I'm still dealing with constipation. I've learned that green smoothies, and yogurt mixed apples, granola, and nuts help sweep me clean .

I have switched my prenatal vitamins to prenatal gummy's, and they are yummy. 

I still have fatigue, but it's not as severe as earlier in the pregnancy.

I get weird sharp pains on my sides sometimes.

My vagina hurts sometimes lol it's weird.

I can't and don't eat much, but I eat often (every 2-3 hrs)

I only get nauseous when I'm really hungry. 

I love my popcorn chex mix, but I wouldn't say I crave any one thing in particular often.

Hubby and I have had sex a few times and I didn't bleed or anything, but he has been scared to actually really have sex with me. So sex isn't the same. I have used lelo a couple of times and have had no issues! (hallelujah) 

My breast have gotten bigger (Mason thinks they've gotten huge). They are heavier and definitely still tender. 

I've been telling more and more people, but I haven't posted on social media yet. Still waiting till I reach my safe zone. 

I've been knitting baby clothes, and now I'm working on some leg warmers for myself (treat to myself). After they are done I will work on a baby blanket. 

Overall, baby seems to being doing great and that is great news for me and Mason. 

Some Light is Coming Through

There's some light coming through now since my last post. THANK YOU JESUS! I needed that light. 

I haven't had any spotting or bleeding since that awful day. I did have brown discharge for a few days, but now that is gone as well. The brown discharge was probably old blood from bleeding as well as getting that pelvic exam at the ER. 

The only thing I'm dealing with is fatigue, pelvic pain (off and on), and now I get a little nauseous. I can handle this nausea, the first pregnancy I was nauseous everyday all day! I'm thankful that it is only a little sickness. 

Of course, I kind of put myself on a no working out regime because I started bleeding after working out. I hate it, but I will get back to it soon I'm sure! I have an ultra sound and doctor visit Monday, so I will ask Dr. Phillips what is best. I really don't want to loose all my gains with handstands and "jumping through". 

I'm happy Mason will get to see the 1st ultra sound. I'm hoping I will be 7 weeks, but I have a feeling I will be 6 weeks and some days. 

Oh, also, tomorrow is Mason's birthday (26 yrs old)! AH! I hope he likes what I got him! Well, I KNOW he will be happy! His mother says I spoil him, and she's right! lol

I love him and this baby I'm caring we made together

:)

Devastated: Bleeding and Spotting

I want to get back to this place. 

That place was a place of peace and comfort, and that was only 3 days ago.

Yesterday, started off normally, I even worked out did 2 miles and 5 rounds of some exercises I saw on Instagram. Later on in the day I took my car to be fixed. Mason and I went to chic fil a. I got my car back, and then I went to go visit Stasi. I told her I was prego, and she didn't want to know. Oops, well I was about to leave but bathroom stop was first. I looked down when I was preparing to use the bathroom and saw the bottom of my underwear was filled with blood. 

Devastation has hit. It has been only a week and half since I found out I was pregnant! I'm comparing this time around to last time and it seems to be turning into that heartache really fast, and I REALLY thought this time was going to be the ONE, the EASY/SMOOTH pregnancy. 

:(

I went to the ER, but of course they didn't really give me much to go on. I've gone through the spotting and bleeding memo before. It didn't end well, so I'm pretty nervous/scared. 

I don't have severe cramping, but I can't help but think that severe sharp pain is coming along with lots of blood soon. 

:( 

I'm trying to remain positive, but God, it is hard. It's going on the 2nd day of spotting. I haven't experienced the huge amount of blood like I did yesterday it is just brown spotting, and only seen when I wipe. 

I did another progesterone test today. On my way back to work from the blood test, and I had a little break down. The tears were tears of fear, anger, hopelessness, and confusion!

  Hopefully I'll get the results of the blood test tomorrow. An ultrasound is next Monday. Hopefully, baby is still there by then. 

Scared and Worried

I don't want to go through this again. 

*sigh*

I want to get back to that place of peace and comfort. 

5 Weeks and My Mother

While I wait for the food to finish up and Mason is outside working on his nephew's bike, I'll write a little something, something. (DINNER: miso soup, green beans, sauteed mushrooms, and garlic chicken) Speaking of food, this time around I'm not dying to eat every minute. I eat like a normal human being. I eat like I've been eating before I knew I was pregnant. That is a wonderful thing, because I do not want to have to loose 100 lbs after baby lol.

My breast are still tender, but they are bearable! I keep a bra on. It helps. I get really sleepy, especially after lunch. I have to fight like I'm in mortal kombat to keep awake. 

This morning, oh this morning, that's when I got a lovely phone call! More like a harassing phone call from my mother! What about you say? Oh, you know, the usual, "ARE YOU PREGNANT?" She went on to say her and my dad both had dreams about babies and just knew it pertained to me! I tried and tried to deny it, but she got me when she told me to "swear on God you aren't lying". . . . UGH! really? No i'm not going to swear on GOD! I'm not going there! She would not give up so I gave in. *sigh She said she wasn't going to tell the whole world like she did last time. I'm going to believe her.  I told her to at least wait until I'm out of the danger zone, PLEASE! She said okay. 

We will see. 

In the pictures I'm 5 weeks. :) 

4th Week Pregnancy Blog

So, I'm taking the advice of my pregnancy app and I want to start blogging my experience. I may even do some videos for YouTube once I have passed the 1st trimester. I'm going to try to go in a logical order, but I'm just going to write and see what happens. 

The first time I got pregnant it was very hard in many ways. 

1st. I was no where near the mental capacity to handle it

2nd. From the beginning I felt like something wasn't right

3rd. I was sick the whole time

4th. I was spotting/bleeding the whole time. I pretty much had a period for over a month

5th. I was ready for it to be over before the 6th week. 

I mean do you see the list? On the 7th week on Labor Day (of all days) I had a miscarriage. I wouldn't say I'm over it. I'm not. It hurts sometimes, but I am much better. 

After the miscarriage we waited 2 months per the doctors advice to try again. In my head I thought we would get pregnant like RIGHT then, but no that wasn't the case. That was another mental challenge for me. I thought I was broken or God hated me because I wasn't like the other fertile myrtle's in my family. It took 5 months, and that was after I had listened to a doctor. She said to do it every other day during the fertile period and let the sperm stay in for a while. Gosh darn it, by the grace of God that worked! Honestly, I didn't think it would work, my pessimistic ways were like, "April, you won't be pregnant even if you stand on your head for 2 minutes". haha GEE!

I took a pregnancy test 4/11 which was 5 days prior to my missed period, and of course it as negative. I was so disappointed, but unlike previous negative pregnancy test in the past 4 months I wasn't crying. lol I was okay, I had said it's just God's will that I not be pregnant right now. So I went on my marry way and when my period didn't come on. I was still like, "oh it will come on. It is just a day late."

Two days went by, and BAM! Denial was banished! 

<2nd pregnancy test in one day

I surprised Mason during a Whisper Challenge Tag we were filming for YouTube. So happy I got his reaction on camera! :)

So, how do i feel this time around? 

To be honest,

GREAT!

for now anyway lol

I am so thankful to GOD for answering my prayers. I did not want to feel like I did the 1st time around. This time around I feel: 

1st. Fine, normal, myself (not like my body has been taken over by an alien from outer space)

2nd. I spotted a tiny bit when I found out I was pregnant and I haven't since. Hopefully that will last

3rd. I'm not SICK!!!!! THANK JESUS

4th. I'm mentally stable!I'm not scared of gaining weight! My diet is under control unlike last time. I'm kicking my pessimism's butt! Optimistic April here I AM!

5th. I'm enjoying, going to enjoy my pregnancy. It doesn't need to be over right now! 

I can't wait to see our little one grow! :) 

*tear of joy*

Day 133 of 365: Cutting Up

I have been in t-shirt cutting mode lately and this is one of my creations! Once again I got the idea from Andrea's Choice via YouTube! I love it! 

My little bushka has a new friend now! They are so cute! This is the first time Izzy has got a long with another dog so quickly. Or I should say the first time another dog has gotten along with izzies crazy ass. Together Izzy and Lucy make Lizzie! Friends!