mmmm. Cocoa Chex Mix
That stuff in the morning is the best, along with peach flavored oatmeal and water.
So last night my husband said, “You always apologize for stuff I notice. You apologize for stuff that’s not your fault…or anyone’s fault, you would apologize for the rain.”
I can’t help but laugh at myself! I can honestly say, I don’t know why I apologize for stuff that I shouldn’t even say sorry for.
A person: My back hurts.
Me: Well, I’m sorry.
I guess in a way it’s the easy answer out! So that I won’t have to go into deep thought or deep conversation about whatever the other person said. It’s my easy way out of communicating! Do I think it’s some psychological shit in my brain? Not really. I wasn’t brought up in a family that made me say sorry for everything. But! Maybe it stems from some subconscious thoughts that I’m a failure or that I made something happen; so therefore, I need to say sorry for the happenstance. Maybe that’s my answer: (1) Getting out of communicating and (2) Subconscious thoughts of life failure. Now that I actually think about this, I’m not pleased! That part of me needs a change. I definitely do not want to think of myself as a failure, and I also know for a fact that my communicating skills need improvement. Not my “in general” communicating, but my deep thoughts about a situation or communicating a solution to a problem me and my husband may have. Ha! It sounds like someone is in need of some therapy, but I really do feel with time and continual work ethic I can nip that crap in the bud. I just have to!
I wonder if anyone else does this and for what reason they do.