#48 of 365. Better Late Than Never

February 17th/ Late Valentine's From Dad

Picture: I got the balloon and stuffed lion from my daddi, while at work today! The company messed up the delivery day so that's why is sooo late getting to me. It was really unexpected to receive this from my dad. He asked me on valentine's day what the number to the flower shop was, but I knew for sure it was for my mom only. He does stuff like that for her on valentine day. Low and behold it was for me too!

Better late than never!

Other: So my mom on the other hand is great at telling me the flaws in my body. I had on a tank top and I was kind of bent, so unfortunately my little stomach fat was at its highest peak. She saw that and laughed and said some other stuff. Real nice MOM! I put on a bigger shirt. She asked why I changed shirts? I told her, first it is cold in the house and second you being mean to me. I swear my mom....*sigh*

Tomorrow is the big day! Me and hubby act like a real married couple for a couple of days. Not only that, but I have some nice surprises in store for him. I know he'll love it.

#47 of 365. Olive Garden Date

February 16th/ Yummy Garden Salad

Picture: This salad from Olive Garden was so good. I couldn't eat as much as I wanted though, because I still had a whole chicken alfredo pizza to eat. Hubby got me on to craving Olive Garden pizza because he said he cooked a home made chicken pizza the other day. I want to try out his creation. He said it was good. hmmm.....Inquiring minds want a taste. In the mean time, he happily came along for the date I treated him on as well as myself. ^_^ He loves a suga momma haha...Jk. He is a hard working person.

Other: So this weekend, is vast approaching. And I am super exuberant about spending four whole days alone with my hubby. We haven't been alone in a house or anywhere really since we got married. We are going to his parent's lake cabin.
Oh, the stuff that will go down those days. hehe
I'm just hoping my body doesn't go against me.
The only horrid part about the lake cabin is no internet. But that is ok I have my phone and or paper and a pen to write down the daily thoughts that I may blog about when I get back from the woods.
I'm really not that sad about no internet. I need time with the hubby. So that is why at this moment I am at school, and about to get started on the rest of the homework that must be completed before my get away.

Onward I go. Chow!

Hubby Sweet Sayings #3

Hubby Staring that Olive Garden Bread Down!

We were talking about what Mason was watching on TV while I was at work: Haley Berry.

Hubby: What! Hit and run and breaking a chicks arm this woman (Haley Berry) is crazy.

Me: It's always the extra pretty girls.

Hubby: You're extra pretty but you don't do crazy stuff.

Me: Aww :-) that was sweet. I try not to go too crazy.

I like how it was somewhat sly and unexpected!

#46 of 365. No Worries, Be Happy

February 15th/ Beauty

Picture:  I took this picture today at lunch. It is a picture of my neighbors yard. I love the new editing that I've picked up. I will from this day start initialing my work. I don't want someone to take credit for it. Whoever they may be. 

I love this picture! ^_^ go me! 

Other: Another day of hell, just kidding, it’s really not. Life is good.

I really should look on the bright side of things. It takes more effort to think about all the things that make me jealous, irritable, sad, depressed, and etc.

I’m going to kick anxiety and shit in the ass though. I’m not getting Celexa refilled. Lol..I’m gong to see how long I can last. I was good for 20 years without it. I can do that shit again. I don’t like being told, “YOU CAN’T DO IT.”  I can do whatever I set my mind to. I wanted to make the deans list last semester and I did. I have been able to get over the worst of situations. For example, being sexually abused before I was a teenager by a cousin. I have never said that on "paper" like that. But it's the truth. I have since then moved on and essentially forgiven the person. If I can "get over" that hurdle in my life, I can do anything. I am a strong person, and I won't let stupid shit get in between me and my happiness. 

So what do I say now to hubby leaving for 6 months? Oh well, gotta do what cha gotta do.

So what do I say to him getting hit on? Yea, he’s damn hot that’s why, but the best part is he’s mine. He comes home to me. And I know he wouldn't cheat. I trust him. 

So what do I say to being lonely? Crochet, knit, watch tv, do yoga, run, go out with friends or call a friend, go to a movie, go look around shops, take pictures. Don’t sit there and sulk on what I don’t have. Stay busy!

I’m determined, to not let the small negative things turn into something way bigger than it ought to be. There’s no point! It only hurts me. I hurt myself. 

#45 of 365. Valentine's Day Can Die

February 14th/ Cake the Office Got From the Boss

#44 of 365. How Long Will I Last

February 13th/ Talking to Hubby on the Phone For a Change

Today, was another one of those, "hurry up and take a picture". I am so tired right about now. I just got off work, and a dreaded Monday is on it's way. Yes, it's still dreaded even if it is Valentine's Day. Hubby, isn't sure if he'll be able to see me. I'll save a gift for this weekend. Plus I'm too tired to do it right now.

Also, it is my little brother's birthday. He's 15 now. Oh how time flies. Just a few years ago, he was smaller than me and stabbing me in the back with a pencil. That little brat. lol...He's going for his driver permit soon. I pray he doesn't kill himself and the passenger.

I cried today at work because of this whole military shit. The military is good and bad at the same time. I've been there done that, and now I back at that.  I get angry thinking about it. I guess I"ll learn how to be like, whatever, I don't give a fuck. Hell, I grew up in it. I thought I was going to never deal with it again, but my ass ran back to it all in the name of love. I do know that my love,emotions, and commitment will be tested for the rest of my life. Get ready for the ride me! It's going to be a doozy! How long will I last?

Soon, I'll grow up and be like one of them damn "Stronnnnggg black women, that don't need nobody, but my kids"! I don't know what the future holds. So, my job right now is to not give a fuck about it and live for today, because tomorrow isn't promised noway.

I want my happy pills. Some green would be nice too.

goodnight.

#43 of 365

February 12th/Going to Work

Picture: I just got off work and im tired! But before I got to work, I took this picture.

Other: The latest thing that I am going to have to cope with is hubby wanting to be an officer or be special forces. Not only do both require him to be gone a year at a time, but special forces is dangerous in my eyes. I think he likes that idea of it being "risky" . I don't know. I haven't talked to him for real this weekend, and he doesn't ever call me. I don't know what is going on in his head and vice versa. I just don't know, but I do know I would ideally have a child in the year of 2013. If he goes the officer route, then he'll be able to spend time with the baby before he misses over a year of our child's life.

But, like I said I don't know, what will happen.